It spins and turns briefly, then stops and drops.
An “old school” toy with a present day application (at least for me).
When I disconnect from HIM, I become vulnerable.
My vulnerability launches me.
It launches me away from HIM where he’s (little “h”) waiting.
(h)e seeks me, meets me, greets me.
he entices me with pretty colors.
he dangles beauty in front of me.
he shows me many paths, telling me they all lead to “life”.
he does so knowing the “life” of which he speaks destroys those who choose it.
he all out laughs while rubbing one hand inside the other.
he waits in anticipation.
“Will she listen? Will she follow?”
I listen. I follow.
I’m embarrassed to say, it’s fun at first.
A different life with different entices.
New friends, new places, new life.
Time passes quickly.
In the wake of time, there’s carnage.
A life spinning out of control.
In the moment, I’m at his mercy.
he’s spinning me, my life.
I’ve given him way too much influence, too much control.
Everything’s a blur.
I’m a blur.
I slow. I stop. I drop.
From my supine state, I look up.
I INTENTIONALLY look up.
Through tear-filled eyes, I look up.
I sense him.
I sense Him.
he woos me.
He calls out to me.
With him, I know the spinning will return.
With Him, I know peace will return.
I INTENTIONALLY reach up.
I INTENTIONALLY remember:
“He lifted me out of the pit of despair,
out of the mud and the mire.
He set my feet on solid ground
and steadied me as I walked along.” ~ Psalm 40:2 (NLT)
I INTENTIONALLY call out.
he gets mad.
He restores me.
he seeks vengeance.
I “rest in the Lord…” (Psalm 37:7 KJV)
The spinning has stopped.